October TBR

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It’s spooky season bitches! This month I’m reading spooky books, as well as a variety of other things! Let’s get into it!

1. My Best Friend’s Exorcism by Grady Hendrix: It’s horror week on Goodreads (add me! goodreads.com/avejam) and I’ve had this book forever so I decided it’s finally time to read it. I love me some 80s themes and I love me some demons, so I’m looking forward to it.

2. This Will Only Hurt A Little by Busy Phillips: Initially I was going to only read horror books in October but then I got the audiobook which is read by Busy so I decided it needed to be moved up on the schedule. I love Busy Phillips so I’m sure I’ll love this book.

3. The Butterfly Garden by Dot Hutchinson: Spooky book #2! I got this book at a thrift store because I had heard of it and I liked the cover. I think it’s about a guy that collects women in a garden? That could be totally wrong though. I don’t know where I got that information so I’ll let you know whether or not that’s correct.

4. Witch Hat Atelier Volume 2 by Kamome Shirahame: I have a new apartment that has a new bathtub and I need a manga to test it out…plus what’s more halloween than witches?

5. Meddling Kids by Edgar Cantero: I’ve had this one as long as I’ve had “My Best Friend’s Exorcism” and it is also spooky themed so I thought this month should be the month!

6. American Psycho by Bret Easton Ellis: This one was on my tbr back in May but I never got around to it, so I’m hoping to get to it this month but only if I have extra time.

And that’s the list! I know I said I would post it on Saturday and I didn’t and I also know it’s almost the middle of the month but I am TRYING okay. What are you reading this month?

September Wrap-Up

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It’s finally fall everyone! Which means I am spending all my spare time inside drinking tea and wrapping up my yearly reading challenge! we’re starting October at 38 out of 50 books so without further ado, here’s what I thought of the books I read last month!

1. Where’d You Go, Bernadette? By Maria Semple:


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I’m a little late to the party on this one because everyone else read this book back in 2016, but I wasn’t really reading at that point in life okay!? Anyway, When I went to see “Once Upon A Time In Hollywood…” (great film) a few months back, they showed the trailer (yes, I do show up to movies early for the trailers) for the movie adaptation starring Cate Blanchett and the book was once again placed at the front of my mind. I picked up the audiobook at my local library and finished it within a couple of days. It was good. It was enjoyable and interesting but there was something about Bernadette that bugged me. Even though she is a redeeming character, and finds herself by the end of the book, I am still a huge advocate for the fact that having a mental illness does not mean you can do whatever you want and hurt the people you love, which Bernadette did and received a shockingly large amount of forgiveness on her family’s part. Looking past the character flaws, I really enjoyed the artifact/document compilation style, as well as the narration of her daughter. Overall I gave it 3/5 stars and I do intend to see the movie.

2. The Mermaid Chair By Sue Monk Kidd:


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OH BOY. I don’t even know where to start on this one. It was the last of my summer reads and as far as southern island imagery goes it’s great…but that’s also where any greatness in this book ends. Maybe it was just because I had high expectations from “The Secret Life of Bees,” or maybe it was because I’ve never been married, but I thought all the characters in this book were childish, and selfish. Jesse is a 40 year old woman who has for some reason never bothered to realize she’s her own person? So she needs to sleep with a monk? For like independence or something? Also, her mom clearly needs serious medical help but Jesse’s just like “no she’s fine,” causing her mom to sever off ANOTHER finger. I was rolling my eyes, through the whole book. I don’t recommend it, unless you need reassurance that you shouldn’t cheat on your spouse…2/5 stars.

3. Carry On By Rainbow Rowell:


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I read the book this series is based off of, “Fangirl,” probably back in the year 2014. It’s a YA romance, and that’s why, even though it’s been on my shelf for awhile, I still hadn’t read Carry On. I knew it was going to be a slow burn YA and I thought I had grown out of it by now. I am here today to say…I have not…at all. I started it on a Friday and finished it 2 days later because I COULD NOT PUT IT DOWN. Rainbow Rowell has such a strong writing style when it comes to keeping you turning the pages. It is perfectly paced and the romance is definitely cheesy but not to the point, that it covers all other story lines in the book. The characters were lovable but also flawed, and representing of all groups. It is an LGBTQ+ themed book which gives it even greater merit in the current world climate. This book was just so fun. I haven’t read anything this quickly since middle school, and I was reminded of just how much I like sitting on the couch for twelve hours straight hanging out with book characters, plus it was a great palette cleanser after reading so much true crime lately. 5/5 stars.

4. Wayward Son By Rainbow Rowell:


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Good thing I didn’t read “Carry On” 4 years ago when it came out because I was able to pick up the sequel that just came out last month right when I finished the first one. I read this one in two days too. I loved this one for all the reasons that I liked the first one but also because it represented real relationships very well. Communication is hard and the fact that Rowell uses that difficulty to contribute to her story lines is entertaining and once again keeps you turning the page. I just want these boys to figure out their feelings and be happy! Hopefully it won’t take another 4 years to get a third book. 5/5 stars.

There they are! All female authors in the month of September, so that’s cool. Check back Saturday for my October TBR!

What I Read This Summer

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Do I even have to apologize for disappearing anymore? It seems that at this point that you might as well just expect it, and be delightfully surprised when I decide to show back up on your feed. Anyway, unlike with my blog, I have been keeping up with my reading. This is pretty impressive for me considering I’ve been working 50 hours a week and pretty much have time for nothing. Those 50 hours of work however, are not without reward. I just moved in to a new, much nicer, much safer, apartment which I might post about later, once it looks like we actually live there. That’s not why we’re here today though. Today we are here to talk about books. I am sitting at 36 books for the year, so it looks like I will meet and hopefully surpass my yearly goal of 50 books. I’ve recently really been enjoying audio books, since one of my jobs is insanely boring, and I can get them free on an app from my library. Seriously, if you don’t use your local library you are missing out my friend. It’s a great place for poor girls like myself, and free to hang out in when you’re bored.. alright! I’ll get to the actual post now. I read 9 books this summer. Here they are ranked from the one I liked the least, to the one I liked the best.

9. Whoever Fights Monsters: My Twenty Years Tracking Serial Killers for the FBI by Robert K. Ressler: Coming in last place this summer is this non-fiction, true crime book by one of the guys that started the program featured in Netflix’s Mindhunter. (haven’t seen it? stop reading and go watch it, it’s way more entertaining than I am.) I found this book insanely interesting and I learned a lot but Ressler sounds kind of braggy when it comes to talking about crimes. Like the worse the criminal the more impressive it makes him look. It might just be because I listened to the audio book, but the whole thing comes off a little heartless. He also does not spare any details which isn’t necessarily a bad thing but it’s definitely not for the faint of heart.

8. Looker by Laura Sims: Looker was…interesting? It’s a novella so it’s really short and also a very creative idea but the whole thing just sort of fell flat for me. The ending just gave me a hollow feeling, like I had no idea why I had read so much just to reach that conclusion. Good but not a winner.

7. Witch Hat Atelier by Kamome Shirahama: This manga is wholesome but it’s also the first volume so it’s just a lot of plot set up. Maybe it’s the american in me, but the fact that the whole story revolves around little girls living with an adult man that took them from their parents just gives me the creeps.

6. My Sweet Audrina by V.C. Andrews: This was my first V.C. Andrews book and I really loved the writing as well as the mystery. The only reason it’s in the middle of the list is because I needed a trigger warning for domestic violence. I think I might like her other books more, and I probably would have liked this one more if I was properly prepared for what I was going to read.

5. Sheets by Brenna Thummler: I picked this up in the kids section, I read it in an hour in the laundromat (how fitting), and I cried…a lot. Thummler does an incredible job of putting a very adult topic into simple and honest terms. I also loved the art and the colors which always puts a graphic novel towards the top of the list.

4. Paper Girls Vol. 5 by Brian K. Vaughan: The queer romance going on between Mac and K.J. made this volume for me. I love Paper Girls but I feel like every time a new volume comes out I need to reread the whole series otherwise I’m just confused.

3. The Satanic Bible by Anton Szandor LaVey: Top 3!!!!! The Satanic Bible is so entertaining. If you don’t know anything about Laveyan satanism, it’s a lot more of a joke than one would think. The whole book is a long iteration of the phrase “fuck everyone,” which is already my life philosophy so needless to say, I loved it.

2. The Stranger Beside Me by Ann Rule: A true crime classic, and for good reason. I had never read any Ann Rule books but after this one I will be reading many more! She has the perfect balance of informative and entertaining writing and I love how much concentration she puts on the victims. She makes them stick in your brain even more than the killer which I think is really important.

1.Stay Sexy and Don’t Get Murdered by Karen Kilgariff and Georgia Hardstark: Of course it’s #1! It was everything I ever wanted. I feel like the reason this book is number one on this list is summed up perfectly in this picture my boyfriend took of me when the book was delivered. If you know how bad I am at expressing strong emotions then you’ll know this reaction is not common.

And those are the books I read this summer!! I have an office corner in the new apartment so I’m hoping that will encourage me to write regularly, plus we’re heading into spooky season which always brings solid content. I’m not making any promises though, like I said earlier, you should be used to it by now.

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April 2019 Wrap Up

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Wow I’m finally posting my April wrap up almost half way through May. I’m going to be honest with you, April was kind of a fail in terms of reading. I had a lot of books that I wanted to read and I ended up reading some completely different things, and not nearly as many as I had originally planned. That being said I did still get through 6, which puts me a little over halfway to my reading goal a month before the halfway point! Let’s get into it.

Envelope Poems – Emily Dickinson: Charming charming charming. Perhaps not Emily Dickinson’s greatest work since they were mostly unfinished and unintentional but entertaining all the same. I gave it 4 out of 5 stars.

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Bloom – Kevin Panetta: You guys this is just so damn precious. 5 out of 5 stars!

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The Sun Is Also A Star – Nicola Yoon: I always like Nicola Yoon’s books so much more than I think I will. I liked the whole fate theme in this one. Very well written. I can’t wait to see the movie! 4 out of 5 stars.

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Invisible Monsters – Chuck Palahniuk: Pretty typical Palahniuk. I definitely didn’t guess any of the twists which I always appreciate. However it was written in the 1990s and definitely a little trans/homophobic. Overall though an interesting story and a very intriguing unlikable main character, which is what Palahniuk always does best. 3 out of 5 stars.

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Where The Crawdads Sing – Delia Owens: I love a good southern novel, plus a thriller, plus a murder mystery!? It’s like this book was made for me. I had no intention of reading it, but am so grateful that a colleague recommended it to me, because it was fantastic. 5 out of 5 stars, and added to my all time favorites.

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Witch Hat Atelier Vol. 1 – Kamome Shiraham: So super cute! I don’t have a picture of the cover since this one wasn’t on my tbr to begin with, but it is a super adorable manga about little girl witches. What’s not to love. 4 out of 5 stars. ⭐⭐⭐⭐✩

That’s it for April! Sorry for the very inconsistent posting schedule as of late. What books did you read in April?

May 2019 TBR

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I know that I rarely post my tbr before my wrap up, but I was a mess in the month of April and have started May off a mess as well. Also this is a very special tbr that I like to call: May Favorite Murder! (it’s clever af okay.) In order to celebrate the release of Karen Kalgariff and Georgia Hardstark’s book on May 28th I have selected some books they recommend throughout the podcast series to read this month! Let’s get into it!

Shout out to my roommate Grace’s tbr for holding up the sign.

The Stranger Beside Me – Ann Rule: Perhaps the truest of true crime books, I will be kicking off this month with Ann Rule’s classic book about good old Ted Bundy. Coincidentally the Netflix film about the serial killer starring Zac Efron, just came out the other day, so I can watch that too!

My Sweet Audrina – V.C. Andrews: Remember that time when Karen and Georgia tried to start a book club? but then remembered how FUCKING WEIRD “My Sweet Audrina” was? And never talked about it again? Well I got my used bookstore copy and I am prepared for the weirdness.

Mindhunter – John Douglas and Mark Olshaker: I’ve wanted to read this book since I watched the Netflix series (where tf is season 2 netflix?) so it was convenient that they also talk about it on mfm, including that live episode where Cameron Britton, who plays Ed Kemper on the Netflix show, shared his hometown!

Let The Great World Spin – Colum McCann: In a special Q&A episode Karen and Georgia are asked “if they could only choose one book to read for the rest of their life, what would it be?” Georgia says Middlesex, which if you know me at all you know I have already read, and Karen says The Davinci Code…but then corrects it to Let The Great World Spin in the next episode. This worked out well for me because I conveniently already own this book and I also really didn’t want to read the Davinci code.

American Psycho – Brett Easton Ellis: Alright so this one is actually never mentioned in the podcast…BUT since another one of my reading goals is to finish the books on my shelf that I haven’t read I decided it was necessary to include at least one. This one fit the theme so it’s going to get read!

Bad Blood: Secrets and Lies in a Silicon Valley Startup – John Carryrou: This one is currently on hold at my library and has also been on my tbr for quite some time. It’s Karen’s fucking hooray in one episode and also a super interesting story.

Whoever Fights Monsters – Robert K. Ressler: I’ve been trying to include one audio book per month so this is this month’s audio book! Karen has talked about it multiple times on the show, and I believe it is similar to Mindhunter so I’m sure it will be interesting

Chase Darkness With Me – Billy Jensen: Yay Billy Jensen! Everyone’s favorite true crime journalist, released an audio book exclusive for Audible.com and I would love to get to it this month! Also if you haven’t listened to Exactly Right’s “Jensen and Holes: Murder Squad” yet, I HIGHLY recommend.

Chaos Walking Trilogy Review

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Head’s up everyone! This review contains a lot of spoilers for the “Chaos Walking” trilogy! So if you want to avoid that, click off this page now!

The last time I read a series, it was adult fantasy and was also one of my all time favorite series, the “Shades Of Magic” trilogy by V.E. Schwab. I can’t even tell you what the last YA series I read was. It was probably “To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before” or something. I have read so many YA apocalypse/distopia that I hated, that I’m not even sure what made me pick up Patrick Ness’s “The Knife Of Never Letting Go” in the first place. I am however very thankful that I did.

When I read the synopsis, I was feeling pretty “meh” about this one. The first book follows “almost a man,” Todd Hewitt as he escapes his hometown on New Earth, a planet that humanity escaped to once the o.g. earth’s end was inevitable, where everyone can hear each other’s thoughts and there are no women. He runs into a girl along his way named Viola Davis who crashed in a scout spaceship from a new group of settlers from the old planet earth. They end up running together, and adventure ensues as the two escape a crazy preacher, and an army. This plot develops into what becomes a civil war in the second book, and a global war in the third. I thought it seemed like a lot, but having read Ness’s “A Monster Calls,” I was hopeful.

Out of all three I think the second book was my favorite. The addition of Viola’s perspective made for an intriguing dynamic and a break from Todd’s hick dialect. I also really enjoyed the first one. The third one I could give or take, it was still well developed and entertaining but I also thing this series would have been just as powerful as a duology. In “A Monster Calls,” I was amazed by Ness’s use of metaphor, which is also found in the “Chaos Walking” trilogy. I also was impressed by Ness’s powerful character development, practicality, and themes. The development of Todd and Viola throughout the series is a big one because they are right at that young teen age where they essentially go from being children to being adults. Todd and Viola’s growth from everything they know being wrong, is enthralling and also very accurate to real life despite being on a more severe scale. I also appreciated the attention to the fact that people should not be comfortable with killing other people! I feel like a lot of times in the dystopian genre particularly. (*cough*, “The Hunger Games,” *cough*) people are murdering people and then just not having any emotions about it at all. I don’t care if they had to do it to survive, or whatever, they should still feel some residual guilt or mental turmoil over it, ESPECIALLY when they’re not doing it of their own free will. If they don’t feel torn up after that, then they’re just a straight up sociopath (*cough*, Katniss, *cough*, Everdeen, *cough*.) But I digress.

In “Chaos Walking” almost all the characters are constantly questioning where they stand morally and I appreciate that greatly. I also appreciated the awareness Todd had of his own masculinity and the fact that he had to keep it in check. For once toxic masculinity did not ruin the party because for once a straight male character was raised by two gay men and not a total piece of shit. (I mean toxic masculinity ruined the party for every other character in the book, but still.) This brings me to another thing that I really liked about this book. I went through the first two books thinking “wow, I can’t believe that he’s never going to mention that Todd’s guardians Ben and Cillian are totally gay for each other and that’s why they were able to save Todd from the toxic masculinity of this town.” Then in the third book, HE DID. And it wasn’t a big deal. It was never a secret from anyone because they can all see each other’s thoughts, they just never mentioned it because no one in this whole society thought it was a problem, and I think that is an amazing choice on Patrick Ness’s part. The whole book is so solely focused on the divide between men and woman and our two main characters are so starkly different in their thoughts on gender from the rest of the world that it’s impossible to miss the point that is being made.

A lot of other issues with gender are brought up with the pretty much genderless race of aliens. It is made clear from very early on that they are much more united than the humans, thinking as one entity instead of individuals. Thankfully it is also seen that lack of individualism in a society can cause problems of it’s own, when half of the race is left behind in slavery. Ness really covers all his bases. Overall, this trilogy is the greatest depiction of very real societal flaws that I have ever seen in a YA book. Which is crazy, because you would think books catered to youth would want to provide some kind of thought on their world. I think a lot do, and that it just ends up buried under a pile of flaming love triangles.

In the end I gave them all 4 out of 5 stars because they did of course all still have YA aspects to them. That flaw is completely based on personal preference, and I think if I had read it back when I was 12 or 13 it would have been put on the favorites shelf. The only plot aspect I really didn’t like was the whole power of love thing Todd and Viola had. It was fine in the more adult relationships, like Ben and Cillian. Todd and Viola’s relationship however, especially in the first two books, seemed very juvenile, so I had to suspend some disbelief there. I also was left with some questions at the end of it all, like: “What about Todd’s dad?” or “What happened to the Mayor’s wife?” or “Can I have a whole spin off series about what happened to that human/alien couple from the short story at the end of book two?” Other than that I thought this series was amazing. For anyone who read the book that wants to know, my favorite character was absolutely Davey Prentiss who is being played by FUCKING NICK JONAS in the upcoming film so I cannot wait to see my sweet baby boy come to life.

I hope you all enjoyed this, kind of all over the place, review. This month is going to be pretty heavy on reviews of movies and books, so if you like these kinds of posts make sure to sign up for email notifications! Now get off the internet and go read this trilogy!

April 2019 TBR

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It’s the fourth and I haven’t posted a TBR yet?? Well don’t worry because here it is. It’s a big boy, and I am almost certain I won’t finish it but we’re going to give it the good old college try. Also I will be posting three times this week so check back for a series review on Saturday. Posting will continue regularly on Mondays and Fridays next week. Okay! Let’s get into the books!

This isn’t even all of them.
  1. Envelope Poems – Emily Dickinson: This month had a ton of large novels, and literary fiction so I needed to pick a couple palette cleansers. I love Emily Dickinson’s poetry and I have had this compilation for years so I think I should get around to reading it.

2. This Is Not The End – Chandler Baker: You guys, I. Have. A. Problem. This is yet another book that I bought for the cover, which is ridiculous because this doesn’t even seem like a book I’d like! It’s YA and the author’s name isn’t capitalized on the cover which bugs the living fuck out of me. I have very low expectations for this one so maybe I’ll be pleasantly surprised.

3. Bloom – Kevin Panetta and Savanna Ganucheau: It’s another graphic novel! It’s about gay boys! That make bread! What’s not to love! There’s something about monochromatic illustration that just gets me every time. This one will hopefully be another quickie.

4. Looker – Laura Sims: This has been on my list of new releases to read since the beginning of the year. It’s a suspense/mystery novella with an awesome cover. It’s also Laura Sims debut work so I am pumped.

5. Clever Girl – Tessa Hadley: Another book without capital letters on the cover! I picked this one up at the Boulder Bookstore because…I liked the cover! (shocking I know.) It’s a contemporary set in the UK.

6. Lullaby – Chuck Palahniuk: A few years ago, I inherited my ex-boyfriend’s Chuck Palahniuk collection, and I have two left. I’ve decided to torture myself and read them both in one month! Hopefully, these are two of his less fucked up books.

7. Invisible Monsters – Chuck Palahniuk: Here’s the second one! I have this one on audio book from my library so I’ll probably end up listening to it.

8. A Tree Grows In Brooklyn – Betty Smith: This month’s bookclub book! If you are interested in reading with us this month, message me on instagram @avejam_ !

9. The Sun Is Also A Star – Nicola Yoon: I read Everything Everything a couple years ago, and since this one is being made into a movie next month, I decided to read it. I don’t think I’ll like this one too much, but it’s an easy read so I kind of need it this month.

10: Where The Crawdads Sing – Delia Owens: This was not originally on my TBR at all but just today a volunteer at work gave it to me, after telling me how great it was, so I’m throwing it on the list!

And that is my April TBR! I know it’s excessive, but I did finish nine books last month so I have faith in myself. What are you guys reading this month?

March 2019 Wrap Up

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Hello all! Sorry that I did such a crap job posting this month. I started a new job which took up a large portion of my time, and I haven’t been feeling great lately. I did however want to give you an update on what I read this month! If you read my tbr for this month, then you know that I planned to read nine whole books…and I did! I genuinely did not think I would get through them all but I did, and here’s what I thought of them

Deadman Wonderland Volume Two – Jinsei Kataoka and Kazuma Kondou: As I mentioned in my tbr, I finished this one before the month even started. I always feel weird rating these since they have such little writing, but it is my favorite anime and manga so it of course gets a 5 out of 5 stars.

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We Are Okay – Nina Lacour: This book broke me and I was not prepared for it. I was very hesitant while reading this because l felt so deeply for Marin and her denial and loneliness. I felt like I was reading someone else’s description of myself. The ending had me sobbing. Such a hopeful and true testament to grief, pain, and taking steps to overcome it. I think if I had read this book at an earlier point in life I would have liked it but not considered it a new favorite however at this point in my life this was a book I needed. We are okay.  5 out of 5 stars.

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The Ask and the Answer and Monsters Of Men – Patrick Ness: There will be a full trilogy review of these and The Knife of Never Letting Go up on Friday so check that out if you’re curious! I gave them both 4 out of 5 stars.

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Circe – Madeline Miller: Okay, so I actually have a tiny bit of this left still but I wanted to get this up tonight. This book from what I’ve read is really good. It spans over thousands of years which is something I always like in books and it also centers around probably my favorite character in Greek mythology. A slightly preemptive 4 out of 5 stars.

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Tweak – Nic Sheff: Nic Sheff is a very powerful person and writer. Honestly if the writing hadn’t been so eloquent and moving I don’t think I would have made it through the book. It’s depressing as hell. And as a person who has a bit of a drug dependency and a hell of a lot of trauma it brought up a lot of shit for me. This is a moving look into living with addiction. I gave it 3 out of 5 stars.

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Beautiful Boy – David Sheff: Overall I thought this book was good. I listened to the audiobook which had a horrible narrator but the story was good. This one is much more chronological than tweak so it’s a little easier to follow but it’s not as grungy and powerful as Nic’s. It mostly made me feel bad for my parents. I hope I don’t make them feel this way. 3 out of 5 stars as well.

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On A Sunbeam – Tillie Walden: This book was gorgeous. There were a lot of plot elements that I would have liked to know more about, but honestly the illustrations make the story not even matter. Absolutely beautiful. We love space lesbians. 4 out of 5 stars.

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Call Me By Your Name – Andre Aciman: A very strong yet realistic novel about passion and caring for another. The ending gave the whole book so much more meaning than it originally held at face value. 4 out of 5 stars.

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March tbr

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Some books for March

It’s March people! Which means it’s time for a new tbr. I used January and February as warm up months just to get used to reading again, so I set some smaller goals for myself. Well not this month. I am going back to my elementary school days and although I have set my reading goal for the year at fifty books I am hopeful that I will reach one hundred. I did some math and that means I have to read nine books a month as well as working at my two jobs. So without further ado, here are the nine books I’m reading in March.

Deadman Wonderland Volume Two – Jinsei Kataoka and Kazuma Kondou: This was set to be on March’s tbr but I ended up reading it between my wrap up post and this tbr. Whoops! Oh well, it puts me a little ahead for the month at least.

We Are Okay – Nina Lacour: Introducing another member of the “Ave just bought it for the cover club.” This his been on my shelf for ages. It’s a really small book and I have no idea what it’s about. I’ve only just started it and it seems like it revolves around this girl trying to cope with grief or trauma from something. It’s YA contemporary so my expectations aren’t that high. I’m just hoping it’s a little better than my last, “purchased because it was pretty;” Sad Girls.

The Ask And The Answer – Patrick Ness: I’m wrapping this series up this month so I have the second and third book on my tbr. I’m really excited to finish these

Monsters Of Men – Patrick Ness: See above

Circe – Madeline Miller: Yay! This is March’s Book Club Book! If you don’t know already, my friend Grace and I have started up an internet book club via Instagram. This is our first read ever! I’ve heard a lot of good things about this book, and I used to be really into Greek mythology so I’m sure I’ll like this. If you are interested in joining our book club please get in touch with me on Instagram @avejam_

On A Sunbeam – Tillie Walden: I saw this while browsing at the bookstore awhile back and knew immediately that I needed this book. It’s a THICC graphic novel and I am so excited about it.

Tweak – Nic Sheff: Did you know that the film “Beautiful Boy” starring my favorite boy Timothee Chalamet is actually based on two memoirs? I sure didn’t but I’m glad I found this book at Barnes and Noble because now I do and I plan to read them both before watching the movie. Normally I wouldn’t care that much about reading the book before the movie if it was a memoir but this one is about drug addiction, which I love to read books about, so I figured I’d like it.

Beautiful Boy – David Sheff: Hey! It’s the second memoir! I think I’ll probably like this one less, because it seems less edgy. I think for these I’ll read both at the same time.

Call Me By Your Name – Andre Aciman: Timothee Chalamet more like Timothee chalaMARCH am I right!? Sorry that was bad. I decided to theme my reading because why the fuck not! I haven’t seen Call Me By Your Name yet either and I know it’s a pretty quick read so I decided to make it my ninth read. I’m always down for some good gay romance, lets be real. And Army Hammer in those athletic shorts. Yummy.

February Wrap Up

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Hello! and welcome to my February reading wrap-up! This month contained some highs and some very low lows as far as reading is concerned. Here are my final ratings and thoughts on the books I read this month.

The Knife Of Never Letting Go – Patrick Ness: This was really good! I love Patrick Ness’s writing and his use of metaphor. I remember reading “A Monster Calls,” as a teenager and just being blown away at the use of literary devices. The themes revolving around toxic masculinity, and loss of innocence are so well portrayed and refreshing to see in a YA post apocalyptic book. This book is very fast paced which I know some people really like, but I would have liked just a teeny bit more character development. Hopefully the second and third book deliver. If I was just judging it with other YA it would for sure be a 5/5. This is beyond amazing for its genre. I can’t wait to read the second one!

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Soppy – Philippa Rice: I just awwwwed the entire time I read this. It is truly precious. I will definitely keep it on my shelf for the rest of my life. 5/5 stars of course.

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 Love Poems – Pablo Neruda: You know, I might just be rating this one out of bitterness. I have never felt passion like that present in this book so I found it mostly annoying. I would like to reread this while I’m in love and see if I think differently. I mean he’s the Nobel Laureate so I really feel wrong for not loving this. Also I know nothing about Spanish but I think the translation was a bit crap?? Any who my favorite poem was “Forget Me.” I would like to read some of his poetry that’s not about love because I have heard really great things. I gave it 3/5 stars.

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 I’ll Be Gone In The Dark – Michelle McNamara: To see my full review click here! Loved this one. 5/5 stars and a new favorite.

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Snotgirl: California Screaming – Bryan Lee O’mally and Leslie Hung: I truly love the characters and the art style so much I almost want to give it 5 stars but the story line really loses me at points. I still can’t wait for the next one.

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 Sad Girls – Lang Leav: Oh man my first low review of the year. SPOILER ALERT on this one because I have a lot to say. I get it okay. The book is supposed to be this huge paradox that makes you question our standard set of morals and whether there are exceptions. But the execution was just. So. Bad. This book is dripping with pretension and had me rolling my eyes once per page. It’s horribly paced and read more like an episode of Pretty Little Liars, than a work of literary fiction. I love the cover of this book and I really wanted to like it, but poets are poets for a reason and Lang Leav should have never dipped her toe into novel writing. Poetry itself is pretentious which is why pretentious people make such good poets. I physically punched the book at least once. The only part I liked was the ending and that’s just because I love when shitty characters just become shittier people instead of better people. Audrey’s fall from Grace would have been a lot more poignant if she had ever been a good person to begin with but she wasn’t, so the meaning gets lost under incredibly poor character development. This was harsh I know, but I gotta call em how I see em.  

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We are now sitting at 11 books for the year with 9 on board for next month, a chunk of which have also been made into movies. Next month also includes the return of book club! If you have any interest in joining please get in contact with me on Instagram @avejam_ . What did you read this month?

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